British pop singer Adam Ant has revealed how the relationship he had with Hollywood actress Heather Graham saved him from depression and suicide. The PRINCE CHARMING star, real name STUART LESLIE GODDARD, met Graham when she was a 24-year-old drama student in 1993. And the troubled musician, who was dealing with deep depression and panic attacks at the time, soon fell deeply in love with Graham, calling her his "angel". But although he insists she Goddard says, "With her pure blue eyes and gentle smile, Heather seemed like an angel to me. She was beautiful but unaffected by the effect she had on men. "I was instantly mesmerised. This was serious. It didn't create the usual desire to run a mile when a relationship got serious. My diary is full of love for Heather - I was using the word without fear. "When I was with her I felt happy. But the rest of the time I suffered bouts of depression and fear. I was scared of losing Heather."