Rihanna - Rihanna couldn't bury her love for Chris Brown
Rihanna admitted she couldn't stop herself from falling for Chris Brown again even after his conviction for assaulting her in 2009 and claimed she had to be ''real'' with how she felt.
The couple have reconciled after a break-up following the rapper's conviction for assaulting her in 2009 - which he is still on probation for - and the 'Stay' hitmaker revealed she left Chris with no intention of falling in love again.
She told The Observer Magazine: ''I wanted him to know what it felt like to lose me, to feel the consequences of that. So when that s**t [love] came back, it hit me like a ton of bricks.
''Like, God, you've got to be kidding me right now. But I got real with myself, and I just couldn't bury the way I felt.''
The 25-year-old singer insisted her on/off boyfriend isn't the ''monster'' he's made out to be and she believes he has changed.
She added: ''There's so many reasons why I ever reconsidered having him back in my life. He's not the monster everybody thinks. He's a good person ... Of course everybody has their opinion about him, because of what he's done.
''That will always be there, but he made a mistake and he's paid his dues. He's paid so much. And I know that's not a place he would ever want to go back to.
''And sometimes people need support and encouragement, instead of ridicule and criticism and bashing.''